Tuesday, December 27, 2005
day one of leave
woke up early. clean up the place. laundry. got portfolio ready. got working stuff for freelance ready. call came in. interview postponed to thursday. walked out of the house called sis. she cant meet up fer lunch. sms. no need to report for part time work today.called some people who is supose to come over to the place today. cant confirm.
walked back to the house. change. cook yucky noodles. played sims for 4 hours.
threw away yucky noodles. now updating blog.
im so pathetic. arrghhhh
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1:54 pm
Monday, December 26, 2005
im back here at the sanctuary. alone.
the winamp is playing on shuffle. once in a while chris martin comes on adding to the melancholic atmosphere.
im under the covers. but i cant sleep.
i juz got back from newton, supper wit the man n his friends.
appreciate him for spending the whole of the looong weekend wit me.
staying here. accompanyin me. even tho most of the times, he is more interested in buildin his dream home in pleasntville@sims or fighting orcs lookalike in warcraft, im juz glad he is at least by my side, in the same room where i am now.
but alas, good times always makes time fly. altho my leave wun end till after new year, the baby juz like the rest of the population starts workin tmr.
the idiot box is on to channelnewsasia.repeat telecast of the 8pm news i guess. i juz need to shed some light on the four walls. n makes it seems livelier.coz lively is wot it is the past few days. wit the kids comin in this afternoon and the man himself making a ruckus of himself like a baby,pretending to be aslan,always making fun of my chin,constantly hungry and askin fer food, i find happiness and bliss in that.
i have no idea wots the point of this entry. i kinda like hanging out wif his army mates. really a fun bunch. n the company of friends we were wit juz now was juz weird.
im juz babbling.
looking forward to company this coming week. and of course the new year's eve makan session.
n i miss him already.
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11:02 pm
Friday, December 23, 2005
a dear friend jumped into the tunang2 bandwagon last weekend.
weeee! hurhurhur
cantek kan...bed sheet dia lawaaaa..mak die jahet kaaaauuuu
muka aku macam budak saket
and then we had steak!
mentel as usual
botol apple tea tak glamer eh?
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10:55 am
Thursday, December 22, 2005
this makes me wanna do the starjump, the cartwheel all at the same time!!
click!
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10:45 am
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
since the start of his new job last week, the man has change tremendously.
till now, im really not sure if its something i should be happy for or frown to.
maybe he is juz excited.
me, i am juz being me. paranoid.
i am after all the one he goes to for comfort and support. to listen to his stories.
to be interested in what he does every single day.
no complains. undying, undivided attention and love.
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i am missing those times. where i get to be where people wanna be seen. the club's events. pictures, party, people. where me and the man were seen in juice. nightlife.
its a big change now. even he finds all that not worth going for anymore.
so we gave the opening of the mega club a miss. a few birthdays a miss too coz they were having celebrations at such places. a good change i should say. n im proud of it.
for someone who used to frequent the club at gallery hotel every freeken weekend, someone who club-hops and drinks like nobody's business, i am loving this new man even more now. coz he has kick all those vices away. a toast to the man. heh. kidding. toast air teh sarbat la dey.
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9:31 am
Monday, December 19, 2005
kingkong was fucken cool. miss quite a few scenes coz i was busy closin my eyes. scary lah. got t-rex all. the ending was so touching giler babi, aku cried leh. the monyet so adorable. like my own monyet also.heh.
and of coz adrien brody never look better.
n my own kingkong, the monyet has been good over the weekend. why? heh, coz i had him over at my place for the weekends. haven woke up nex to him on sundays fer a long time.
ooohh.....another broodin dude to catch. anyone willing to get me tix? a birthday present perhaps since it falls on february??
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sometime i wonder does my name spells troublesome or burden?
esp when u see it flash across the screen of your mobile.
*shrugs*
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10:13 am
Friday, December 16, 2005
listening to radiohead's What is That You Say? and
You never wash up after yourself
i must get out once in a while
everything is starting to die
the dust settles the worms dig
the spiders crawl over the bed
i must get out once in a while
i eat all day and i now i am fat
yesterday's meal is hugging the plate
you never wash up after yourself
damn fuckin cool. the coolest song ever from radiohead for now. heh
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stop thinking the world revolves juz fer u.
egoistic fuckheads.
what is that you say?
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12:31 pm
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Anger is sickening.it controls u,instead of vice versa. i fear anger. in me, in u. but i gotta learn to live wit it. even if it burns me.
when im angry or disappointed, i cant say it.its like my lips are glued, tongues entwined. I usually cry my lungs out instead of pouring out the unmentionables .
its like anger comes to me in the form of liquid gushing out of me, drowning me.
hug me,where until then, serenity awaits.do not push me away.when dat happens,the muscles goes into tension,irritated.the anatomy breaks into pieces.the heart drowns in the heat of the raging fire.
a hug and my tears are dried. miraculously, my lips are no more sealed, n i shall speak.
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10:30 am
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
body mass index is 17.
unhealthy.
underweight.
malnourished?
from the last time i took my weight, i lost a hefty 10 kilos.
im happy but im worried.
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12:26 pm
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
anyone goin for a break? holiday? getaway from the 23rd onwards?
can i tag along pwease?? *flutters eyelids*
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10:23 am
Monday, December 12, 2005
points to take note n remember
*i realised i've been too nice lately.and that my words are most of the time just equivalent to empty vessels.
*do not say your thoughts out unless someone really has a penny to give in return.
*i shall not be bothered with wot problems u gotta face in the near future if u dun worry fer urself.
*i shall not, adding to that, discuss or mention any matters pertaining to the monetary funds anymore to anyone. unless of course, its gonna affect me badly.
*i shall not worry about others coz i have myself to worry about. my dad's health, my too-far-to-reach-further studies,my neverending search for a roof on my head.thats just some of them
*u do wot u deem fit is good for u. but dun come crawling to me in bad times. you have powerful contacts to back u up in distress time anyway.
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10:05 pm
i read a girl's blog.
i wish i could type out things like her. i wish i could tell the world i feel the same kind of euphoria as she does.i wish things like that happen to me often.
I wish things are that easy right now.
but i cant speak of myself enjoying something like that.i thot maybe soon.i need to be patient.
then i ponder long enough and decides to drop the bestie an email.
maybe not. maybe i'll never get to taste things like that just like that girl whom i read her blog.
on another note, finally i get to savour good food from west coast food centre. and its only 5 mins away from home,thanks to the 3 red buses from the bus stop nearby. after 6 months in the vicinity. heh.
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4:48 pm
Friday, December 09, 2005
last week the co had an advance xmas high tea at marriot. and guess wot i got for the gift exchange? soap. from body shop. 3 soaps.
then we headed down to orchid country club for a game of paintball!
it fucken hurts! but damn syiok!!
here are the pics!
my team won 2 out of 4 games! damn cool can? i didnt know i was so good at aiming and shooting.
the fun bunch of peepz i clique wif
the 3 young ladies in the house before the game
dunno wot jer is tryin to prove
us wit the really wicked manager! he's cool!
me n jer. the only other crazy one besides me.
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10:14 am
today my colleague says i look like one of them those swedish gals.
i have a new top n a new skirt on on a friday!
my skirt is so cute..little cutesy flowers wit a ribbon at the side.
and i have my hair made into much nicer curls.so vain me.
:)
kita suka sekali!!
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9:21 am
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
aeon flux was so close to being a B grade movie.threadin on thin ice man. its a scifi and i hate scifis, the only reason was obviously charlize theron. even the man agrees. we almost got out of the theatre halfway.
zathura was a dissappointment too.
bleargh
now i cant wait for kingkong. my adrien brody!!!
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11:37 am
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
after 2-3 weekends hibernating wit the popcorns and dvd at the apartment,
we finally went out over the weekend.right from friday thru sunday! yeay to us!feels like a goat whose master just set him free.
happpy nak mampos dapat kluar kandang
dun ask me why i look sad, heh. i didnt noe how i was suppose to pose. i was not ready. i didnt even noe he was kissing me until i saw the pic. but it turns out fine aye.very nice. heh
happy dah dpt ciom.heheh.
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10:52 am
Saturday, December 03, 2005
shrink call it denial.
but im juz confused.
i do not know who to turn to.
i juz got jab.again and again.
someone please talk to me.
ive been alone for the past few days.
let me tell u a secret. im afraid of loneliness.
i hate being alone.in fact, now, i hope to be back wit my parents. just me, mum and dad.
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10:32 pm
