Thursday, September 29, 2005
Wow!!! Lu da ada boy la. Bole tahan.
Sorry la ...aku tak da hp no kau.Msg your number to me.Nanti kahwin, aku jemput kau.Kau tunggu dalam 2007 gitu. Heheheheheheee
Kau bila pulak? Kawan kau da ramai settle down.
this was one of the testimonials i have on friendster now.
first line - Wow!!! Lu da ada boy la. Bole tahan (wow...u got a boy now..not bad ar)---> all along this person tot i am not capable of getting myself a fine young man.
second line - Sorry la ...aku tak da hp no kau.Msg your number to me.Nanti kahwin, aku jemput kau.Kau tunggu dalam 2007 gitu. Heheheheheheee (sorry la, dun have ur hp no,msg me ur number,when im getting married,i invite u,in 2007 like dat)-----> oooh....2007? am i oblige to pass u my number since u have forgotten to tell me about ur engagement?wot if by then u lose my number again?
third line - Kau bila pulak? Kawan kau da ramai settle down.(so when is ur turn? all ur friends have settled down) ----> correction here.they are YOUR friends.most of my friends are still studying and have just started a career.we are not kakak2 kahweng like ur friends.and do i have to tie the knot now just because everyone else is doin it?
i do stil have a life to enjoy u noe.
why am i so bitchy today?
coz i cant go to the loo n pee coz the person before me has juz used the only toilet on this floor to do his mornin business and the place is such a mess i cant bring my ass anywhere close to it.fuck.my bladder is about to burst.must wait for the cleanin lady to come,dat if she comes in today.
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10:20 am
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
lunch was picnic at the istana park.the man cook up some noodles n beefballs in the morning. offered to bring it to me and have lunch at the park.
nuting fancy,but the troubles he took.almost cut himself while cuttin the fruits.
made two trips to the station coz the first time he went out,he ferget the lunch,yes of all things.he walked from the apartment to the train station nearby and havta walk back juz to get the lunch.and rushed down to the office to fetch me.
see how much this man loves me.
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we were at the dining table last night, both busy tweaking our own resumes.
dun ask me why im meddling wif it again.will talk abt it in another entry.he was busy goin thru ads after ads for a proper job before he starts goin into the real thing early nex year after his exams.
then came the question "wot wud u do if one day my grandparents decide to send me fer further studies overseas?"
to which i answered "i dunno.i'll do my own thing and dats it.coz i dun believe in long distance.it juz defeats the whole purpose of being in a relationship.i dont understand why some people even bother goin into something like dat for a loooong time and eventually breaking up later"
"hypothetically only ok."
we then came across an ad which offers a gross income of 4000 per month but it needs the person to be able to work in malaysia.he was excited when i read the ad aloud.so i said "hmm...ok lor...go to malaysia la....u so love the place wot"
"hey..i was kidding, dear. look...."
then he pointed to the papers and started singin "cintaku bukan di atas kertas"
which of coz brought me laughin madly disturbing the flatmates who were studying in the living room.sorry folks.
fyi, if ur wondering im so uptite over this malaysia thang, his ex gf who was still crazy fer him when i am already in the picture is from KL and they had a long distance relationship which lasted fer hmm...2 weeks?
aiyah.im juz being over-jealous,over-insecure me.i know the man loves me.i love him.we trust each other.but u noe, testing the waters la.
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12:42 pm
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
had a really scary n weird dream last night.
the location was some two storey bungalow,wif my family and the man around.
in the dream, i woke up from my deep slumber to hear mum crying and screamin at the top of her voice. couldnt really make out wot it was coz apparently she was in the bedroom on the upper floor.
the man was not beside me.but i had a feeling he was upstairs too.i hurried up the stairs and to my horror i saw the man cuddled up in one corner,sulking. and mum was throwing his clothes out of the bedroom.askin him to leave the place.she went berserk.i was tryin to calm her down after i manage to grab her by the shoulders.couldnt exactly remember wot she said.after which,i went up to the man n gave him a huge hug.he was raving and ranting on wot my mum did but at the same he looked scared or sad actually.i ended up cryin, and of coz i woke up from the dream lost, crying and looking for the man who was just beside me.and so i gave him a tight hug and lay my head on his chest.
someone has an explanation for this?
its scary.the two people i love most having conflicts in my dream.dun wan that to happen.
last night before he fell asleep he took my hands and put it on his chest,
and said
"do u feel it? do u feel it beatin? my heart beats fer u baby.only u."
awwwwwww......
hurhur
mushy hor.
we are gonna try the fried mars bars tonight! it was featured it the papers last week and the flatmates went down straight away after reading abt it.so wait fer my review tmr! gonna take pictures!
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10:02 am
Monday, September 26, 2005
it was a really fun and happening weekend tho at the end of it, it totally shagged me out.
started the saturday early catchin up on eleKtrik's preps for her big day.had prata and soon we were walking aimlessly around arab st altho we knew we were suppose to look for kain for moi,the bridesmaid-to-be.
but it was more of as usual a live broadcast of CNN n CNA.heh. we realised that we did more talking than walking when we were really exhausted and thirsty.hurhur.
then off i went to yishun wif the man to get the food prepared for the makan2 in the evening.
his friends started to come in at around 7 at the west coast abode.by then,we only had the pasta sauce and chicken wings ready.i was in a rush to get the linguine cooked.and of course,gettin all the food served and cleaning up the kitchen after all the mess.
maybe i did panic, but i was just anxious.shrugs.coz i'd want to make this as perfect as it is for the man and his friends to have a great time.they played pool at the games room downstairs and then my friends came streaming in. apologies to those whom i did not get to really layan, coz i was busy in my world wif the best friend. when she came it was as if there were ten more people coming in.hurhur.both of us made such chaos that we kinda disturbed the concentration of my man and his friends on the XBox.hurhur.yeah.we were dat loud.the man was so overwhelmed to see me in that mood that he exclaimed "when i saw u and yati go all so hyped up laughin loudly all, i was so stunned.its like is this my girlfriend. do i know her?"
hurhur.
well, they dun call us double trouble for no reason.hurhur.
i was so glad when the man sent the last guy home.damn tired cleaning the kitchen and doing the dishes.although the man insisted on doing all that since after all it was due to his brilliant idea dat we invite our friends for makan2,i just dun tink the place wud be as clean if he did it.heh.yeah.when it comes to cleaning,just leave it to me.
so finally i got the man to myself that night.hurhur.
sunday morning we woke up early to fetch the Haqeem and his siblings.we prepared soup and chicken wings for them when they came.got them to watch madagascar and then a swim at the pool later.fed them lunch and let em have their afternoon nap shortly after.hurhur.it was fun playing parents on a sunday.and the man really looks like one big daddy carryin haqeem in his arms.such a freaking turn-on!hurhur.
oh.happy 7th month anniversary baby! muah muah!
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9:36 am
Friday, September 23, 2005
to those who sms me yesterday n tag me , thanks for all your concern n well wishes.
i felt loved.
im back at work today.and it pains me to go to work this morning. the man is down with fever.he was shivering really badly.and he still insist on sending me to the bus stop.
he is suppose to go back home to yishun, and in that state,im dead worried for him.
work has pile up and ive only been away fer a day.
yesterdae's scope was one painful experience.
i appreciate the man's presence thruout everything. him sacrificing his time to go back home n also werk juz to take care of me the whole evening after the whole medical procedure.the thing itself wasnt so painful coz i asked fer an anesthesia.
poking me wif the anesthesia itself was painful coz they had to try 5 times,poked me five times at five different places to get the needle in coz i have very fine veins.the nurses even had to get the doctor's help to get me to sleep.
the thing was, they didnt wait fer me to fall asleep to shove the tube down my throat. i was fully conscious and oh my, it was weird n awful.i puked right there and then.it was only when they did the other scope dat i was not aware of anything.
only woke up much later to very bad pains in the tummy n back.after effects of the scope.the nurse called fer the man and explained to him that i had some bacterial infection n inflammation in the tummy n intestine.
wot got me really frustrated was the inefficiency of the staffs at the pharmacy.
we waited fer almost 20 mins to get the medicine after gettin our queue numbers from one of the staff.
it was only at the counter that the staff asked if i wanted to pay by medisave or cash.medicines paid by medisave havta be done at another pharmacy at another block which was kinda far.apparently my medicine amounted up to almost 80 buckeroos,and the procedure i undergone allowed me to pay by medisave.the lady at the counter who gave us the queue number shold have informed us earlier when she saw the prescriptions and my particulars.and it was already 5.40pm, pharmacy closed at 6 so therefore we do not want to wait any longer and furthermore i was in pain, so we just paid by cash and left.
usually it will be the man who flares up in situations like this, but yesterdae he was calm about it.saying that prolly the staff were tired since it was towards the end of the day. but to me, dat dussen give them an excuse to not do their job properly.u are after all serving the patients u know.
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12:09 pm
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
liquid diet. no hard-to-digest solid food from today till 10pm. and from 10pm onwards,no more food nor liquid is consumable.
den by tmr morning i should have drank 2 litres of funny liqud given by the doctor to cleans the inside fer a more precise test in the afternoon. i will be sedated.i will be in the OT.
sounds serious.but its nothing to be alarm at since test result wil be known only after tmr. to know whether im suffering from some chronic disease.
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12:52 pm
Monday, September 19, 2005
he has been back for a week now.n for the past 7 days,he hasnt gone home yet.keeping vigil at my place at night to look after me just in case i get one of those attacks again.bliss. to have him wif me all the time.i shouldnt be complaining.but when the time spent together isnt really spent doing things together, its redundant.
i was kinda dissappointed wif his behaviour the past 2-3 days.i kept quiet, not showing my discontentment.but i guess that night was the last straw, i kept awake sobbing in bed with the joybee on the lap and unpouring my hearts out to the best buds.
once he was awake in the morning, i decided that keeping quiet is not gonna solve anything.so i told him how crummy i hve felt the past few days.n he understood. but! he did it again that afternoon. a heated argument broke out right before dinner when i decided to juz ignore him and that pissed him off straight away.it was more like verbal catfight.this man i love has a mouth as sharp as the guns he held in the army.n his crankiness is one of his darker side.although he has cool down for the past few mths,it was blown up yesterday.he became this bitch wif pms.
i was not telling him why i was unhappy.coz why? men juz dunno it when they have done something wrong...and goodness sake, why cant they juz read our blardy mind?but as usual, all was well after dinner.u see as ive said before in my previous entries,we always clear things up in less than an hour after a war like this.wif some water werx,it will juz melt him all over again.heh
i learnt that i shud juz let it out. coz when i keep mum,n he tinks everything is fine,its worst.juz gonna hurt me more.
well things do get better after fights like this. and i became a happy princess yesterday.
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9:28 am
Saturday, September 17, 2005
appointment on tuesday morning at blk 3 sgh.
praying its nuting serious like wot the doctor suspected.
the man juz left for werk about an hour ago.made breakfast for him,did the laundry and bored-me vacuum-cleaned the common areas,kitchen and the room.
not much to do now.im having tummy aches again, so swimmin or gym is a big no-no.
lets do some house keeping to the joybee aye while waiting for the man to come back wif lunch.
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10:17 am
Friday, September 16, 2005
no attack the whole of yesterdae coz i practically skipped lunch to avoid the excruciating sharp pains. coz the pain will be worst usually after meals.
so i was all so merry n chirpy when the man fetched me from work and we head on down to get our much craved zamzam murtabak.we got it packed as i wanted to catch lost at home.
decided to walk home again from central. and we bumped into the same malay junkie lookalike mat rocker. it was 3 days in a row, same time, same place the bus stop.
the first time,he was at the bus stop. the moment he saw the man alighting from the bus, he followed us. den he greeted us. askin for loose change to go back hom to holland. the man's wallet was in my bag, so he was looking fer coins in his jeans n he had none so he didnt give any.
2nd day, we were at the 2nd bus stop waiting fer da bus,when suddenly the man felt a tap on his shoulder n it was the same rocker again.now askin fer one dollar.and so i gave it to him.yesterday he just walked past us wif a swagger and a smirk. weirdo.
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i get very stubborn n whiny when i get sick. and it didnt help dat u get one stubborn whiny sick gal wif a man who has a rather short temper taking care of her.
sharp pains was stabbing from the insides of the tummy,the man did every possible thing to make me feel better.but of course nuting helps.i ended up crying coz i troubled him too much.at one point,i stopped him and couldnt care less about wot he was doing coz i knew it was gonna be a futile effort.i was adamant on doin things myself coz i do not want to trouble him.i knew he was pissed but i guess seeing me in that state cooled him down.
and the doctor still haven made an appointment fr me wif the specialist yet.
the man is gettin worried.n i am gettin scared.
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10:51 am
Thursday, September 15, 2005
yesterdae we had banana nut crunch cereal dip in Godiva praline chocolate spread!
sinful, heavenly.
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haven been to work fer 2 days.first, to accompany the man. 2nd,coz i had to go fer checkup due to not-known-sickness.
referred to a certain specialist at the hospital along outram.
really hope its nothing major,maybe a one day minor surgery den i can go home.
wudnt wan to stay there and stare at four blank walls with sick people around me.
everything have been great since he came back.and after some serious talking last night(we usually only talk cock to each otha haha)we might have good news knockin in a few months time.
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9:45 am
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
the man is finally home. and he got me loads of stuff.
GODIVA chocolate spread! no more nutella and weird tasting funny chocolate spread from 'car-wash'!
heh
a few nice tops. one of them looks like one of the tops i nearly got fer myself last week on one of those im-lonely-i-need-to-splurge shopping trips.
a CAMPER bag.
oh and a very thoughtful gift, a massage roller. fer my always aching back n neck.
but i guess dats just to save him the energy if i ask him fer a massage in future.
hmmph.
but nothing beats having him hugging and kissing me endlessly.
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this sickly me is draggin me down to depression. it juz burdens me wif more emotional stress. ive had this sickness woteva that the doctor diagnose since forever. i guess it started when i was in tertiary school. i remember one of the previouses, lahabau actually, who gets pissed at one point coz i was gettin so sick frequently. which is why maybe he is now the previous one. no one belives how excruciating the pain is when it comes,and now over the years it juz gets worse, n other symptoms have been popping up.n it juz gets scary.i told the man how stupid i felt when i get sick n everyone around me juz gets worried.he suggested seeing a specialist.n im glad he understands my plight and i could see how very worried and that he is sad fer the state that i am in. see.this is wot i hate,having my loved ones so worried n sad juz because of my weak state.this sucks, why cant i be as normal as everyone else?
posted @
3:16 pm
Friday, September 09, 2005
anyway i had this yesterdae
still yummy as when i last had it like when i was 5-6 yrs old
posted @
12:22 pm
you are so adorable when you go all protective and jealous.
so adorable when you go "sayang kita tak?"
went joggin again last night. and some guy with really good physique(yes yes i was checkin him out too,cant help it.eye candy) donning a navy teeshirt was doing his runs too. at one point, when he ran passed me he turned his head n actually paused.and then he continued running. and minutes later, he was actually running beside me. then he went "hey saw u running yesterdae, do u do this everyday?like run alone?we could run together u noe"
and i replied "hmm yeah" and sped off. haha. it must be the ultra short shorts i was wearing.
so i was sms-ing the man "hey do i look hot in my running attire?"
surprisingly instead of replying the sms, he called back la. not from the payphone but his mobile. so i was telling him all about the incident n he went "hey ur not joggin till i get back.oh..wear a teeshirt dun wear ur running singlet ok.sayang kita kan? sayang kita giler babi kan?"
haha i was laughin my head off. den he said "dah bagos aku tak suroh kau pakai sluar panjang.notti eh.must be a morale booster right.he muz be cute kan? ok la this is an expensive call..love u.jgn notti!"
haiz. everytime i recall the conversation, i will be smiling. i was smiling the whole morning.
posted @
10:55 am
Thursday, September 08, 2005
maybe i should start deleting some people from this list.
under great peepz,only 2 are online. and some i dun tink they even own a computer anymore.
posted @
12:20 pm
went running last night.alone.the ahpek zaini was snoozing away when i called.
it was a rather breezy evening. running to the tunes from you got served soundtrack.
ahakz.yeah u r rite, its the fo shizzle shite i was listenin to.suddenly i go all hiphop shite.
and then this morning, the lrt decide to break down.and like miracle, i was standing right in front of the ahpek when i got into the sardine-packed train. the moment both of us started yakking away, the otha commuters beside us was staring. why?
coz both of us look so alike. like munjen! and we were conversing in malay.
haha.everytime this happens it makes the man go all laffing madly.
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9:51 am
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
i just realised that ive been having double/multiple entries lately
what does dat say huh? i have loads of time? im bored? i have lots of things to talk about? all of the above. haha
mama likes the gift so much she held on to it while we were watchin tv.
how cute is that? its not until that i move out, that i appreciate and realise that i should not a lot of things for granted.
we had a really sumptious dinner last night. albeit late, but everyone enjoyed their share of stingray, rojak and one of mum's new experimented nasi goreng. heh.
mum also prepared some ikan cincaru bakar which of coz has lots of tulang(bones)
me being me, being the manja one, had mum to get all the meaty parts for me and still being selenger, still dunno how to eat fish on my own,i actually almost choke on a bone. and got mum all worried.asking me to 'telan nasi' all.heh.
and she still remembers my habit of drinkin tea before goin to sleep. and so last night to my surprise, she got it all prepared for me.
kita sayang mak kita.i doubt noting can ever replace all that she has done nurturing and taking care of me all these years.and i have been a not so good daughter,i hope
im able to take care of her and let her enjoy her golden years comfortably.
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9:38 am
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
one very good reason why i should go back to jelapang this week.
aku nak baya balek puasa la. gonna fast.
ah ah.macma lambat kan.but its better late than never.
if i go back there, at least i will have something proper and
truely halal to break the fast.not that i consume babi or wot, but
you see we dun exactly know wot the previous tenants have been cooking
with the utensils.
yeah.so basically thats that.
posted @
2:46 pm
its her birthday. as of today, she turns 60.
my beloved mum.
this evening yours truly will be going back with the gift she took days to decide to get fer the mum.
following the man's advice last night,i will be staying at the mum's place fer the next few nights.then i can do my jogs again at the usual route these few evenings.will get the ahpek bro,zack, to join me for the jogs. will prolly be back on friday or saturday just in time for the all-gals gathering this weekend.
was complaining to the man via sms over what happened during the weekend. he couldnt call coz he was of course busy with whateva he had to do in the vast jungle of taiwan.he finally called last night apologizing his absence fer the last 2 nights.
his mission will end today which means the daily calls will resume tonight till he gets home sunday night.and by then he will be back in my arms!
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10:27 am
Monday, September 05, 2005
i broke down twice. once in the morning. and once more before i retired to bed.
there are just some stuffs which can get out of hands and i cant handle it alone.
when these things happen, he will always be there to make things a tad better,rosy fer me.but im doin it all alone now.
but i cant complain.i asked for this. i should have anticipate all these when i led my life this way.
i wonder if im able to cope with these alone when he has to go back one day.
posted @
12:42 pm
mr moore is at it again! yeayness to him!
and to them too!
posted @
9:13 am
Friday, September 02, 2005
i was tasked to buy dinner for the flatmate's boyfriend last night. cause she had dinner with her classmates.so at seven plus, there in the dining room, u have me eating instant 4-days-expired-already-meepok and him eating packed chicken rice.
while watchin the swearing-in of mr president and laughing at the CJ half dying couhing while Mr Nathan is making his speech.then halfway thru some CNA programme, he wanted to catch SUperstar. oh gawd! i cant believe i watch the whole of this Cheena Idol lor.but all four of us (yes even the other 2 flatmates )had fun watching.
everything was a joke.it was really cool to have all of us there in the living room.
we should have at least this kinda get together like maybe twice a month.
must try to put the man n the owner/landlady/the otha flatmate in the same room together.hehe.
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the other Azmi called last night. aka Boy. remember Boy? one of my platonic
boyfriends who used to be my personal trainer. i used to mention him a lot in my previous blogs.well i almost ended up with this particular Azmi instead.
apparently Boy only heard recently that i moved out n am stayin on my own with the flatmate.the three of us, me, Boy and the flatmate used to hang out a lot together at starbucks, smoking our life away. he called to find out how we were, what we are doin in our current lives basically to do some catchin up on lost times.
well the story is, we made some sort of pact and after both of us got attached we juz basically drift away from each otha. it was cool gettin to talk to one of my close buddies again, but this of course without the knowledge of his girlfriend.i knew his girlfriend and she is a nice gal just dat she is kinda over protective when it comes to me cause Boy used to have this thang fer me before he finally decided to go after her.
yeah so as per normal the insecurities.ahakz.
as usual, i did most of the talking. Boy will keep on asking questions, and i will be story-telling and he will be laughin at my stupid jokes. we talked till around one am.a 45 minute convo. and he promise to contact me more often now.
to be buddies again.
heh.i wonder what the man gonna havta say about this. he knows about the pact i made with this guy of the same name.baby, dont jealous ok, i still love u.
posted @
9:22 am
Thursday, September 01, 2005
updated! my man juz called! he is fine! was in some underground thingee the whole night.got trees falling in front of him.really bad weather.now they are preparing for some exercise just in case the weather goes back to normal really soon.but im twisting my fingers just so that they will be send on the next flight home. :)
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i retired into bed kinda early last night. i waited for the guys to come home,made my cuppa tea and went to bed.but i only slept for the first 2 hours or so.the rest of the night i was awaken by the beeping of the phone always hoping the msg or call to be from taiwan. was worried all night.close friends assured me he is gonna be fine after i sent out some distress msgs.
typhoon has hit taiwan and after yesterdae's morning call from him,i haven gotten any reply to my msgs from him yet.usually he will reply promptly.
i hope its just that the network is down due to the bad weather.a friend told me that the battalion is always ready in cases of this so i should not worry.why shudnt i worry when i see places in taiwan now badly flooded with winds as strong as 220km/h in the news this morning?
baby, please call me.
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9:01 am
