Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
posted @
5:01 pm
Monday, November 29, 2004
pics up!
some dated back from the fasting mth up till latest yesterdae evening.heh
click here for more
posted @
1:18 pm
Friday, November 26, 2004
SAW this yet? i want to go see leh. but im like freaked out. the website has already traumatised.really one good website dude.
i complained to one of the managers that itam macam malam hav been pushing me his werk. his manager actualy. n so he is gonna get it on monday. yeay.
so guys, lemme ask u, wots ur views is u see me walkin around town wif a mat tapered?
hehehhahaaahehahh
posted @
1:09 pm
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
before i start anything heres one KNN piece of news. HOW TO K&K LIKE THIS?? kopitiam ban. KNN rite?
someone nice and sweet is gonna host my webby n blog fer me. heh.
so guys, i'll be emailing u guys my new home address soon. which means more pics!!
im so not in the mood to werk todae. the website has been launched. some glitch here n there tho which i'll look into soon.i hope. so i tot i need a break before i start on the nex NYE n xmas projects. damn sianz. grand openin nex mth some more. leave me ur email addy if u wan VIP passes to our grand party aye.
its been raining cats n dogs the past few days. and it has not been so sunny fer me either lately. loads of things came up. the bomb was dropped a few days back. i have more responsibilities now. n wif this comin up, i juz cant be bothered to tink of trivial matters that has crop up now too. suddenly, holidays n shoppin is not top of the agenda anymore.
aniwae, it juz irks me when i realised that im such a choosy n fickled person. ive been single fer the longest time eva and ive been anticipating a special someone to come into my life. but when there is really someone, im scared. n juz knew i'll fail him. its not him. its not anyone. its juz me. cuz i noe i'll be fickle later on. n surprisingly, im enjoying single-dom very much. the freedom. really. i get sick of reporting my strength after a while. i dislike holding hands. i dun like it when guys mention 'dear' when they are talkin to me. i hate mushiness now. no more touching, romantic me. but i do hav my emo days ya. but dats juz it. all i need is kretek and fun wif my gfs to end the emo me. maybe im gettin used to the harsh n she-is-juz-one-of-the-guys treatment i get from my close guy frens. juz fooling ard.
ok...enuff of my rantings. u guys stay tuned fer the new url ya.
posted @
2:55 pm
Monday, November 22, 2004
my eyes .puffy. red. swollen. sleep. i need sleep.
aniwae open house at a colig's place yesterdae was a blast. when we tell others thats how rowdy we are in the office, they were shocked. we totally rawk the house.
photos will be up soon. photos of the slacker gang.
ok 15more mins. lunch. which will be 2 hrs long. todae will be quick chop2 lunch den straigth to the comfy sofas at the bar downstairs for a quick nap. gd nite y'all.
aniwae big gulp this morning. which got me choking on my ya kun bread. and then i cant finish it. heh. usual me who cant finish up her food.
posted @
11:57 am
Saturday, November 20, 2004
a weird dream. and it made me realise. men, please stay at least a radius of 10 metres away from me. coz me, officialy hate the one species called men. bluek.
oh did i tell u that in a fit of anger, i threw my phone onto the wall? and now i cant hear any ringtones.only the vibrator mode werx. so now its a vibrator.i'll prolly hav loads of miss calls now. but then again, no one eva calls me.
haha.i will send it for repair soon , or a new phone perhaps aye? its been 2 yrs wif the hp esbok 6510
posted @
9:15 am
Friday, November 19, 2004
hey yo. been a very busy week. not wif jalan raya. but the new outlet soft launch party. and so it happened ysterdae. the launch of the new bar/restaurant. weeks of preparation..gone in a few hours.gone partying. kissing, drinkin, huggin, dancing, picture snapping.hah. thank god i didnt get too involved in all of dat. bulan baik aku buat kerja camni eh. before i could party for a little while tho, some itam macam malam got me to his duty for the evening instead. me at the reception table to wait for VIP guests while he had already gotten drunk having a great time inside when its only 7 pm!
so i guess i will only be able to really start my jalan raya tonite or this weekend. haven been out wif the family due to overtime for the past few days. tiring but at the end of it..it was great!eye candy, celebrities(spin & light years, models),mat saleh,rich guys.heh.
weird entry aye. when eveyrone is updating on raya, here i am wif sumtin abit off.heh. pardon me. takde gambar raya pon.pasal gua lupa gua ada camera.selenger kan.
posted @
4:18 pm
Saturday, November 13, 2004
a month has passed. we have survived this holy month, a big triumph. there are some dingdongs pose along the way but hey Alhamdullilah i could actually perform the terawih on the last few days of Ramadhan and of course the first raya where i actually contributed a whole lot to mum for the preparations. makes me feel really good altho the pocket is badly burnt now.heh.
for the first time, i didnt get to have an iftar session with the best friend. she is busy with her exams, really hope to see her for raya n of coz for her birthday. hav a whole lot of things up in store for her.
missing the annual iftar session wif the guys from the previous sch too. they had one dinner session before Ramadhan but of coz the atmosphere was different.
missing both my arwah nenek. we were at the pusara the other day. how i miss them when i was at their grave.
ok for all Selamat Hari Raya. Lets say this in malay aye. it sounds much betta n of coz more sincere. and ya i dunno how to put it in english.hahah
semoga ramadhan yg bakal berlalu telah memberi seribu satu keistimewaan dlm setiap individu serta syawal yg bakal tiba akan memberi seribu satu harapan dalam bahtera kehidupan..
buat teman² sekalian.. yg saya kenali secara langsung mahupun tidak.. maafkan segala salah dan silap yg telah dilakukan dalam jalinan ukhuwwah selama ini..
jempot ke romah yeeeee
posted @
4:53 pm
.: RESHMONU - IT'S YOU THAT MATTERS :.
TAUFIK SANG THIS ON SINGAPORE IDOL!!!! YEAY!!
verse 1:
time, has its way
to show me the reason for living
the world and all its splendour
gives me a sense of believing
that our love,
will shine thru,
and will keep us,
keep us forever,
and our love,
will pull us thru,
the bad times and keep us together.
chorus:
i don’t wanna fight this feeling no more
wanna love you and love you, its you i adore
cause its you that matters
just the sight of you throws my heart ashore
and the joy you bring opens up my door
cause its you that matters
verse 2:
my love, need to bloom
like a flower a process unencumbered
that want, should i feel
when that trail i truly discovered
that our love,
will shine thru,
and will keep us,
keep us forever,
and our love,
will pull us thru,
the bad times and keep us together.
posted @
1:08 am
Friday, November 12, 2004
there was no need for sappy raya songs. no need for sappy raya dramas. as i was sitting there waiting for the train to arrive, an old man, frail n juz as old as my dad, clad in a blue shirt n songkok haji was sweeping the floor across the platform.
there were other men in songkok coming out of the opposite train all leading to the mosque for the final terawih of the month.
pity that atok. having to work when he could be on his way fer the prayers too or at home playing wif his grandkids after iftar. to make ends meet. kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang. i get very emotional when i see sumone dat old still doin odd jobs. he shud be enjoyin his golden years. i wonder how he will be spending malam raya n raya itself. will go up to him if i see him again.
posted @
10:06 pm
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Hingga ke akhri hayatnya, dia masih kuat memperjuangkan usaha damai dan negara merdeka.
Inna lillahi wa inna illahirajiun
posted @
3:44 pm
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
its a wonder really. how i can actually cheer someone up, make sumone else's day ,by listenin to a friend's pouring out all her misery/problems/dilemma and giving her my 2 cents worth when my life itself is in a topsy turvy. ironic dun u tink. married friends, attached friends, goin-to-be-engaged-soon friends who regards me as aunt aggie when me, myself and i is belahdey hell single. i dun even hav a freakin love life n they come to me fer help. i guess im good at talkin but i dun practice wot i preach thus the failures in my relationships. rite? like they said 'cakap senang, nak buat tu yg susah'.
heck i dunno. but im always around if u guys need a listenin ear and point of view of a really deluded single gal. do not stop here. im honoured really. am always glad to make sumone's day. that u guys come to me to unpour. i'll cry wif u, laff ourselves silly at our antics and at the end of the day i hope i help a bit to make the situation less worse ;)
posted @
1:05 am
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
psycho.me.becoming one.in the making.or maybe i am already one without realising it.a colig is afraid i mite even get a voodoo doll.
i stare at her pics for hours every single nite. and thousand of questions raised in my mind. and then i cry. cry myself blind.
Good times don't come easy
Dreams don't all come true
The world looks like a prison
When you're stingin' with the blues
Why did you go, why did you go
I'm gonna cry myself blind
--primal scream
posted @
1:48 pm
Monday, November 08, 2004
this is wot happen when u go all emo n u cant sleep when its 1 in the am.
little doggie need sum loving
bear2 comes around
bear n doggie happily ever after
the trusty dumbos
lovely candles
the view from bed.me lying down part 1
magic mirror
the clock
freebies from resfest.juz some of it.the rest are still in the bag
purple rain?
the room in the day
at 1am - the view from bed.me lying down part 2
looks creepy aye? - the view from bed.me lying down part 3
its fasting month, no ghosts ard..so i dare snapped all these
posted @
1:59 am
Sunday, November 07, 2004
thom yorke. the subject of my sexual fantasy. lying down cuddlin and kissing on top of the car. then him singin street spirit all nite long. such is the effects of jonathan glazer's retrospective. ok..i cant get reach of yorke..so anyone wif a similar habit of twitchin of the eye,look awesomely sexy wif his eyes close and a voice as orgasmic as yorke is fine.
walked all the way from empress place to bugis st. got my linen drawstring pants at half the price of wot i saw at heeren the nite bfore. then to simlim to get the thumbdrive. to arab st, for table runners n last pit stop, bussorah st for juadah berbuka. all alone babe.
saturday as usual didnt werk out as I planned (hmmph). but nevertheless it was a great dat out.
ended up breaking fast alone at home wif yummylicous tahu telor n pulot panggang ( the fave la dey). cuz dad went to the mosque . mum n the rest out shoppin and cundt care less to call n tell me they will be late. they got home half n hr later. wif more food.when im already full. thanx hor.
hav u guys been watchin suria every sunday ite at 830pm? theres this really heart wrenching drama starring umie aida. separated from her love by her mother. the mum hooked her elder sister up wif her beau. how sad can dat be? and she has to watch all these, eevry single day, helpin em wif the wedding preps
i cant see myself to be that strong, to hold back the tears everytime i see the man i love wif sumone else. dun even say my own sibling, even rite now im in tears thinkin of him wif another gal. i can so empathise wif wot umie's character goin thru rite now.
a tribute to jonathan glazer. heh.wait he is not dead yet. but he is tha stufff yo.an excerpt taken from the RESmagazine. u can get em at ur nearest borders & tower records. and not forgettin ur neighbourhood frenly designer grafix book store at bras basah complex, basheer.
1. Street Spirit: Radiohead (1996)
2. Virtual Insanity: Jamiroquai (1996)
3. "Frozen Moment": Nike (1996)
4. Into My Arms: Nick Cave (1997)
5. "Protection": VW (1997)
6. Karma Police: Radiohead (1997)
7. "Parklife": Nike (1997)
8. "Swimblack": Guinness (1998)
9. "Last Orders": Stella Artois (1998)
10. Rabbit in Your Headlights: UNKLE (1998)
11. "Surfer": Guinness (1999)
12. Making of "Surfer" (1999)
13. SEXY BEAST Trailer (2000)
14. Song for Lovers: Richard Ashcroft (2000)
15. "Whatever You Ride": Wrangler (2000)
16. Making of "Whatever You Ride" (2000)
17. "Dreamer": Guinness (2000)
18. "Odyssey": Levi's (2000)
19. Making of "Odyssey" (2001)
20. "Tail, Drama, Evil, Sole" Barclays (2002)
21. "Devil's Island" Stella Artois (2002)
woah..thats the whole list of videos i caught at the asian civilisation museum auditorium todae. all by glazer man himself
posted @
6:55 pm
Friday, November 05, 2004
resfest VIP passes. lomography. apple animation workshop
thurs thru sunday. heh.
hmv.vcd galores.katehudson.audrey tatou. pas du tout.bill murray.7.95 each.45cents more than movie tix.:)
let me talk a bit abt resfest. wot i saw todae was a few werx from jonathan glazer. the british director who did music videos, commercials n feature films. hs werx includes, the black&white ad for guiness, street spirit for radiohead,kungfu for levis and virtual insanity for jamiroquai. his digital werx is tha stuff man. theres also a short film entitled pol pot's birthday, a dark satiric comedy set after the fall of phnom penh. this was filmed using juz a minidv and a panasonic dvx100.
its really interesting u guys. for 12 bux fer one film n 70 bux fr a whole day pass wher u can attend and apple werkshop too on digital animation n filming, its worth it ya.
posted @
9:00 pm
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Character Manusia berdasarkan Kentutnya:
1. Orang TIDAK JUJUR
Orang yang kalau kentut lalu menyalahkan
orang
lain.
2. Orang GOBLOK
Orang yang menahan kentutnya sampai berjam-
jam.
3. Orang BERWAWASAN LUAS
Orang yang tahu bila harus kentut.
4. Orang SENGSARA
Orang yang ingin kentut tapi tidak boleh kentut.
5. Orang MISTERIUS
Orang yang kalau kentut, orang lain tidak ada
yang tahu.
6. Orang GUGUP
Orang yang tiba-tiba menahan kentutnya bila
tiba
masa nak kentut.
7. Orang yang PERCAYA DIRI SENDIRI
Orang yang selalu mengira kalau kentutnya bau
harum.
8. Orang SADIS
Orang yang kalau kentut di ranjang terus
dikibaskan baunya ke ranjang orang lain.
9. Orang PEMALU
Orang yang kalau kentut tidak bunyi tapi lalu
merasa malu sendiri.
10. Orang yang STRATEGIK
Orang yang menyembunyikan kentutnya
dengan
tertawa terbahak-bahak biar orang lain tidak
dengar.
11. Orang BODOH
Orang yang kalau habis kentut menghirup nafas
untuk mengganti kentutnya yang keluar.
12. Orang PELIK
Orang yang kalau kentut di keluarkan sikit-sikit,
sampai bunyi "tit-tit-tit"
13. Orang SOMBONG
Orang yang sering mencium kentutnya sendiri
14. Orang RAMAH
Orang yang senang mencium kentutnya orang
lain.
15. Orang yang tidak senang BERGAUL
Orang yang kalau kentut sembunyi.
16. Orang AKUATIK
Orang kalau kentut di dalam air sampai
bunyi "blekuthuk-blekuthuk"
17. Orang ATLETIK
Orang kalau kentut sambil mengeluarkan
tenaga
dalam.
18. Orang JUJUR
Orang yang mengaku kalau habis kentut
19. Orang PINTAR
Orang yang boleh menandai bau kentutnya
orang
lain.
posted @
5:08 pm
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
coligs were discussing family-planning over lunch todae(its my off days ok). everyone answered like "i wan a boy n a gal", "4 will be enuff" and so on. me answered "none of the above"
but then in split seconds i answered "ok maybe a boy, juz one..to keep me company when im old, anywae boys dun talk so much"
the reason for my answer? i was at the bustop this morning and ther sitting on one of those orange benches was a young malay family. 20sumting couple wif a 4-ish yr daughter. a bus arrived. the mum kissed her daughter,hugged her and then kissed her hubby's hands. in return, the hubby kissed his wife's forehead. and the dad n daughter board the bus.
isnt that sweet? juz one of em little things that sometimes make me change my mind abt stayin single.
posted @
5:21 pm
the bar/restaurant im werking at is the main sponsor for this. film enthusiast, digital media design students/professionals please support.
posted @
11:47 am
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
in the bus. wot a sad ending to a very great day. if i tell u why im sad, u guys will laff la.
got so emotional when simon lim played 'make it wif u' by bread on air.
Life can be short or long,
Love can be right or wrong,
And if I chose the one
I'd like to help me through,
I'd like to make it with you
woteva's going on rite now or woteva's gonna happen soon is really disturbin. i was not able to finish up anything at werk todae. which was very bad. a first. id usually set targets in the mornin n by 3 or 4 id be done wif it. but todae, i left werk even before 70% of em are done. this is my weakness, i let trivial matters take over me. affect me in such a belahdey annoyance. shoot me.
posted @
11:32 pm
we went to patissier @ ann siang hill todae. bought a nice cake. indochine got theirs from ther.
posted @
1:58 pm
Monday, November 01, 2004
the day i spurt tea out during breakfast
cramping. nursing a very bad cramp. left the office after lunch. called a cab as it was rainin heavily. when i tot i cud lie down n have a good rest at home, i ferget they were gonna do the painting todae. so my room was in a mess. they had juz finished up wif my room, still fresh wif the awful paint smell. i was puking badly. lighted the candles and off i went to slumberland.
now the real cleaning up begins.shucks.then kueh making this weekend.
but before that i have the deadlines at werk to tink abt. the boss was screamin in the morning.wanted some stuffs done by end of tha day.but i went home.gawd.the bugger n my manager was the one who kept insisting i go home n rest. n ferget abt werk. i was callin em up straight after i came out from the clinic. i was askin em to pass me the files vua email so i cud do em at home at nite. of coz, they refused to do so. am i turnin into a workaholic? this is crazy.
during break fast, i was tellin my bros n mum abt my plan to move out into a rented flat. my bro advised me to instead apply fer a new flat now.one which will only be ready in 5 yrs maybe. so i have that time to get the moolahs in the safe. he said those monthly rental is more worth keepin to buy a flat. as the discussion was goin on, sis-in-law mentioned 'u shud get married earlier la, then easier buy flat"
at that exact moment, i was drinkin my tea n upon hearing 'GET MARRIED' i spurt out the tea out of my mouth onto the floor.everyone was laffin at me la.
i told em i wudn wan to be living anywehr near my elder sis, so bro suggested punggol.haha.den sis said later i will be all alone ther..no one wil wan to visit me cuz its belahdey far n cuz i dun wan to get married. and she had to remind me of the orang2 tua yg tinggal sorang kat bk merah. damn.
posted @
10:39 pm
