Monday, October 31, 2005
its hereagain!
lets hope i get invites and vip passes again this year
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5:03 pm
Friday, October 28, 2005
dear people, do take a listen to this ok.
coz she is my best friend..so i wan everyone to know she has a lovely voice and she is a very talented being.
heh. please download her songs.heh
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remember reading on eddy's blog abt the guy who fell to his death at cineleisure.
well..here's the article. he was actually runnin away from the police man.
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9:52 am
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
narcissistically-me!
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9:59 am
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
i dun like it when others who are ignorant about the werk i do ask me in such demanding ways why i do my werk according to abc and not 123.
like one being here juz asked me after ive sent her the designs i made for the cd labels.those labels u stick on cds wif a hole in the centre.i bet u smart ass noe wot dat is right. well this one being here asked me why i didnt put in the title of the cd in the centre.
????????
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5:52 pm
Monday, October 24, 2005
i got a new hairdo!!
click!
these are very random pics
from isz bday way back in august. the last k&k. haqeem's visit to my apartment. tuty's engagement.day out wit eulyndra. day out wif kit. day out wif elektrik.
and day out wit the best bud. wit our new hairdo!
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11:56 am
Friday, October 21, 2005
wednesday was one helluva day. plans was to go over to the man's place after meeting edwin to help him wif his props. since i was at bugis wif tuty and lydia, i tot maybe i could get the man a proper meal for his break fast. to my dissappointment, he was somewhere outside wif his friends. so i went back dat evening totally down. things in the office dat day was a topsy turvy.i cant stand it anymore.
as advised, i called him the moment i reached home and i cant blardy care if he's outside or at home, wif friends or not.i juz pour myself out right there and then.
im such a bad girlfriend.
for buka semalam we had western but they gave us soup melayu nak setepping clam chowder. it so tasted like tom yam,melayu nak jual western jadi jual kuah tom yam kaler krim.yuckest.we will have our best naan some day ok dear.
consolation tho, we had mrs fields n ice cream straight after that!
and at one point, i was so jealous over him going on and on about his fun and cool colleagues. coz i dun have fun and cool colleagues anymore.
:(
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9:56 am
Thursday, October 20, 2005
friends, pardon me if ive been pms-y of sorts lately.
no explanation for that.
i hope im forgiven
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5:55 pm
fuckin hate it when non-designer fuckalosers try to tell me wot to do wif my work.
when they dun even fuckin noe wot they are talking abt.
'yan, can i see the poster she pass u yesterdae? i need u to make some changes now'
*me open 58mb file in photoshop,she fuckaloser sat beside me
'sorry ar, its gonna take a while,file very big.'
'y so big?its always the same file wot,why take so long to open?'
'its a workin file,its 58mb file so take a long time to render'
*after explainin changes,me try to start work, she still sat beside me. have problem editing poster*
'she use freehand wot? why cant u edit it?'
'she only gave me a photoshop file. i seldom do big ass posters using photoshop.and furthermore the reasons why i cant edit this file is because i do not have the fonts.and the fonts are not updated in photoshop and non editable,in freehand its easier'
'its helvetica, wot fonts are u talking about'
'ya i dun have it on my pc'
'but i want u to change the content now, its easy wot, use freehand la'
'ya ya, i have to get the fonts from her first once i get all these,its juz a matter of cuttin and paste the new text'
'woteva la,use woteva u can to do it, i want it by today'
mentang2 aku puasa.kau nak menduga kesabaran aku eh.
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10:45 am
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
i hate it when i get so dependant on him. i wanna to pick myself up from one of the lowest dump of my life right now wit my own two hands. i dont need him to be here wit me to put a smile on my face. i have gone thru worst things and i lived thru it and came out strong. so this is zilch compared to those trials of life.
i know these are just withdrawal symptoms. aftr having each other living together for 3 months,i am getting sick of doing my work alone in the room.it would usually be me wif werk, him outside reading or playing his games.and i could juz go out in half n hour fer a quick hug or kiss if im feeling tired.then now, with us living apart, he gettin used to his new working environment,things fer me have been very negative.add that to not being able to meet each other fer dinner as much as we want to anymore.my working environment being so uptight and not having anyone to talk to at work is making it worst.solace is when i can get my best buddies to talk to me, to come over,and when i get haqeem by my side.happiness and smiles envelope when i see dad coming home from the mosque,all smiley asking me to eat and eat even tho its eleven in the pm.thats only when i come to visit, i have to go back to my own place.i have werk to do,the place to clean up and its more convenient to go to work from home.
my state of health is goin down wit all these.im afraid i will go into depression
once again.im afraid he wun undrstand.im afraid i will push him away wif these.he needs his space,he needs his rest after a stressful day at work.but im not askin for much.am i?
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10:16 am
the only thing i look forward to workin here is when the clock strke 6. dats not only because thats the time i knock off but also the only time ever i get to talk and laugh. talk and laugh to the only ever colig whom i i can have a proper convo wif. a philipino. erine. pretty sweet thing. she is so lovely and friendly. she is not as cold n uptite as the rest. once i hear her footsteps, i will hurry up and pack my things juz so i can be in the same lift as her, walk to the train station and have a short journey in the train wif her. the only thing that makes me smile after 8 hours in a no human interaction environment. the only thing that maybe is making me stay.
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9:07 am
Friday, October 14, 2005
i have been too caught up wit my emotions the past few days. my mind was in a mess.i couldnt think rationally and once again, i wronged the man. i have let the insecurities took over me. it was already a mistake not giving him time to get use to the current situation, and worst i tot history was repeating itself, coz everything was so familiar wif the past experien ces.
he was sweet enuff last night to come all the way from his workplace up north to send food to west coast.for that, he only break his fast at almost eight when he reached my place. i miss cuddling up nex to him on the sofa. and before i could soak myself in the bliss, it was time for him to go. im sorry baby. <3 baby.
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11:12 am
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
its almost midnight. i have a splitting headache. tired from all the walkin the whole day. but im hurting. my heart juz hurts too easily. born wif a fragile heart.please do not snap at me like that. it really stabs me hard,coming from u.
i should be asleep now, but im balling my eyes out, all red and swollen.this has been goin on for the past nights.
someone out there help me to help him,please,i beg of u.
the laugh n smiles is all u see, but when i excuse myself dats when i let it all out. alone.
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11:57 pm
Didnt have a good start to the evening. all thanks to me being so blur as ever and thanks to his good ol temper.the workload has taken its toll on him,hence the crankiness. dinner at fish n co turned out to be real quiet.
it was not until we got into the cab that our tongues started lashing at each other and
of course, tears dropped. but by the time we reached our destination ( KC's birthday party at the apartment) i was wrapped in his arms wiping my ingos n tears on his calvin kleins.heh.padan muka dia.see how fast we get out of our arguments.
the apartment for the first time was totoally spick n span.cleaned.even the kitchen tops, balcony, floors not sticky anymore.ave skipped school and did all juz dat. very proud of her.hurhur.eh babe, do this every fortnight la.hurhur.but we do together.den the apartment will be more conducive to live in.hurhur.good job.n nice party.nice halal ccocktail too.kc,cant tink of anything to get fer u cept that. coz we tink u really need a new work-able one.
before he left,we sat on the balcony floors and hold hands.most of the times,we didnt utter any words to each other but smile.happiness.i miss him already.
anywae monyet, dun get too friendly wit the minahs at work ok.juz do ur work. i know they are getek and tryin to attract ur attention.so juz act blur ok.if not jaga kau monyet.
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it must have been the earliest during the fastin month that i set my foot on geylang.
we have no idea wher to go after breaking fast at far east n so elektriklady and myself took the train bound for paya lebar.and surprise surprise, amongst the makcik,the mats n minahs, we bumped into my man and his friends. they had their break fast at singpost earlier on and were also on the prowl.at the end of it, i was in the company of these boys. mat n minah jokes were the topic of the day as usual after the tawaf around the bazaar.not much these year, cept that they are sellin cars now.the nicer baju kurungs n kebayas were mostly at the boutiques than the bazaar itself.
hav no plans wotsoever this yr to get a new baju fer eid.or buying anything at all.
juz too jaded wif work now.
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10:27 am
Monday, October 10, 2005
woke up at ard 11am on sunday to a noisy house. kids were running around, haqeem was at the foot of the bed, staring at me n giving me his most charmin smile. he was prolly puzzled as to why im suddenly there. or perhaps he couldnt recognize me.
gosh, first sunday of ramadhan. nuting to do. the man not around, we cant bring the kids home n swim. lost.bored.got off bed and decided to take a shower n prolly juz slack the whole day watchin dvds. as i was about to enter the bathroom, the man called. he too juz woke up.he too was all bored n lost. so we came up wif a few suggestions on wot we can do. finally decided to chill out at the library and then get some food from arab st before goin back to our respective families to break our fast. spent a good 2 hours goin thru legion of superheros, the far side, and other good comics at the national library.we then walked to arab st to which we bumped into isz and familie and my bro n familie. after doin our asar, we stormed thru the crowd on our mission.but it was kinda chaotic.we ended up not buying anything and of coz easiest solution zam zam murtabak. got chicken murtabak coz we dun need to queue for that.the man sent me home in a cab n off he went to his grandma's place at bukit batok.in the cab, he was reciting some quranic verses which juz soothes the ear and made me smile.
after magrib, i had this sudden pangs of sadness again.i was not having any tummy ache. i was juz sad, every little thing that's happening around me was affecting me. my paranoia gets to me that bad.i sms the man, told him i was cryin. he called back straight away. and in minutes, he was at the void deck. he decided to send me back to my apartment at west coast n called a galfriend to accompany me for the night as he was not goin to stay over.he left after su came down. i didnt know wot made me cry, n i felt bad gettin the man come down all the way to juz give me hugs n words of comfort.
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10:27 am
friday night was bliss. dinner was on him, to celebrate him on clinching the job.
heh. we make a really yuppie couple as ave said. one's a designer , the other a banker.
DINKS. dual income no kids.hurhur. nice.juz dat we are not livin together at the moment.
had good time wif isz on saturday albeit the rushed timing and of course lost coz we did not know exactly where to go.
followed the man to his poly friend's birthday party at east coast.felt uncomfortable initally,dunno exactly wot to say or do. as usual, everyone tot i was really either too quiet or anti-social.i had the man to blame, but he only realised it later which he then stick nex to me till the time we left the place. i did had small talk to one of his good buddies tho.we even plan a vacation to one of the resorts early nex yr,a double date kinda vacation. :)
and i love snuggling up to u on the ride home.
a funny incident on the way to east coast tho. decided to tak 966 from woodlands to marine parade.normal journey will take around30mins. when we board the bus, a makcik shouted to the bus driver "eh dis bus goes to geylang right?"
den i turned to the man and said "no leh...dis bus dun go ther.go ask her to go down"
but of course no one bothers.
as the bus was along the expressway, near st andrews junior sch, it stop in the middle of the expressway. at the divider. and then the driver turned to us. we tot the bus broke down but instead he asked " does anyone knows the way? this is my first time driving this route."
dats when me n the man started laughin and we exclaimed to each other dat we are screwed. we almost wanted to go up to the driver and shake his hands and say congrats. hurhur. at this point of time, the above mentioned makcik went up to the driver and sorta gave him directions.a few minutes later we were on the right track, coz some pple boarded the bus.then the bus drove past singapore post n geylang la dey.the makcik took advantage of this blur sotong driver n directed him to her destination instead.to which of coz got all the other passengers pissed. and so, 3/4 of the passengers in the bus got down at eunos mrt after some kind passenger gave the driver the correct directions. it was a joke man. weird things happen aye.
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9:34 am
Friday, October 07, 2005
have not seen the man since tuesday night.
it has been late night calls ever since. and its really hard not to miss him when he keeps on teasing me,and then making me laugh at his baby antics.i juz wish i could stretch my hands out into the phone n pinch his face.
finally saw him ten minutes ago when he came down to the office. he came to get his work stuff from me.my oh my.he look so charming in his power suit.the first thing he said when he saw me at the entrance was "hey hi!(paused..gazed into my eye and exclaimed)..oh my u look so sweet"
then he looked down to the ground wif a smile and apologised.
"sorry..im not suppose to get carried away"
my heart juz melted and i fell in love once again.
he asked me out formally on a dinner date tonight.he promise it wil be somewhere nice.in that five brief minutes of seeing the man, i felt like a pimply adolescent shyly talking for the first time to her crush.we said our goodbyes,juz tilting our heads to the side wif a shy sweet smile,juz like how first time teenage lovers do it.
and then i realised not living together is not such a bad idea after all.being away from him for a month.i miss him more, but its time like this that makes us appreciate each otha more. its true wot they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder.the last night we were at the apartment together he said, "yes..i will miss you lots,but we'll both make it thru this holy month and our love will only grow."
i cant wait for the day to end, not anticipating the dinner but more to seeing my 'crush' again.
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10:00 am
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
my mum called the day before to ask me when im coming back to visit. dad has been missing me lots she said.
i went back last night after the man and myself had our so-called last dinner date at breeks.he was suppose to accompany me get groceries.groceries so i can cook something up fer myself fer breakfast fer this whole month.
as the train approached redhill, both of us had craving for fried mars bars n really good western.so we got off n took 132 to town.after filling up our tummies, we went back to the west coast apartment to pack our stuffs. he brought home our xbox, his toiletries,a quarter of our dvd collection and half of his clothes.i had only like 2 sets of underwear n werking clothes each. took a cab to send us to our respective parents' place.
dad was all smiles when he saw me at the door.
during the pre-dawn meal, i was feeling all glad dat i still can come back for a decent sahur wif my family.but as i was tryin to spoon the rice into mouth wit my eyes still closed, a tinge of sadness came over me. i didnt noe wot it was.n my own house,i felt like a stranger.like i was treated differently.maybe its juz my imagination,no?
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1:18 pm
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
now a lot of us wants to go snooping around friendster anonymously.meaning viewing other's profiles without that person knowing u actually viewed his/her profile.
i view almost evryone's profiles (on my list dat is). and most of you juz rocks.
very interesting friends i have.
its just funny how one wants to be anonymous but
displaying their whole lives on their own profiles.
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1:58 pm
Monday, October 03, 2005
list of movies/dvd we caught over the weekend.
she's all that 3- boys & girls (freddie prinze is hawt!)
crash ( damn depressing man)
valiant (freaking awesome animation!)
pearl harbour (josh!)
12 monkeys ( krazeeee!brad pitt!!)
hostage (bruce willis - great actor)
must love dogs (sweet john cusack)
four brothers ( marky mark has got huuuugeee biceps n he is soopa hawt!)
we've got cinderella man and brothers grimm but were too tired to watch it. heh.
prolly later this evening.
but we were so disappointed when we went over to JB yesterdae coz we cant find corspe bride on dvd yet.
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9:30 am
