Wednesday, June 29, 2005
the man gets schizophrenic. one part of him becomes such an ass,while the other part of him gets apologetic with me.he never fails to drool over his mood swings.but no matter what,he will always turn into this sweet little guy at the end of the day.
we tryin our best to understand this silly little shits. of me even. of me always screwing things up, of me being the selenger and cacat one always spoling the already tension mood. he realises he has issues too and trying his very best to overcome it. to not hurt my feelings.and i havta help him along.i believe that if you love someone and wants to be with that someone,you will have to accept his or her nature by believing in that person.
we have helped each otha a lot. a lot of our decision makings was based on each otha's instincts. my choice to move out, his decision to continue his studies. all these wont happen if we hadnt met each otha. it may have only been four months but he has played a major part in my life. n im so grateful for that.we are counting on each otha to make things right for ourselves.ready to support each otha through out this journey.
i miss my little chimp so much,theres a wreck in my brain now.
posted @
2:08 pm
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
we decided to chill for today. we try to keep it at 5 days per week meetups. heh. of coz most of the times,we fail.
suppose to make the hearts grow fonder. absence of each otha in arms. but i doubt i need it. im so smitten and besotted by this man.
but i guess i need time today on my own too. spend time wif ma n pa before i actually leave the place.
i need to run too. i ran on saturday and i was panting after only 15mins. i usually run fer 20-30. n i will continue wif my circuit trainin. but i skipped dat as well on sturday morning. coz i haven been runnin fer at least 3 weeks!i will need to try at least finish up my usual 7-8klik run tonite.
and i cant wait to meet the 4 brothers
a lot like love. get the dvd. its a modern day when harry met sally, juz draggy.
and of coz better lookin peepz. i got lost sumwher in the middle. tryin to keep up wif wots happenin between demi moore's loverboy & salma hayek lookalike character.
fun bit abt it are the photos emily(amanda peet) took. they even did a nude sumwher in the national parks. heh.
posted @
3:35 pm
we make it a point to neva end the day and part after a tiff. always end the day wif happy hugs & kisses. always part wif a makeup kiss.
im so sorry dear. its me. you have help me a lot. thank you fer being in my life. i love you
posted @
11:27 am
Monday, June 27, 2005
i shed tears as crimson as the heart that bleeds
every single time
brainfucked, im left dumbfounded.
i try to understand. but why must i always understand?
the lungs get hurt. sore. stabbed with a wrench.
but as the crimson flows down the already wet cheeks,
your soft fingers touched my face,
and saccharined words lined ur lips.
i fell in love again as i stare at your eyes,
as i stare and hear u reciting sweet nutings
and serenaiding.
and its sealed with locking lips
nectar breathing.
seal of bliss.
lost in our world of love.
posted @
12:35 pm
Saturday, June 25, 2005
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posted @
11:01 am
Friday, June 24, 2005
i always say the wrong things. actually no. i meant wot i say as a joke. but being the sensitive new age dude, he always gets offended. and dat happened again last night.
"anything la"
"wot?anything?? wrong answer."(phone went dead)
so i called his mobile. got rejected 5 times n fer the rest of the 178239th times, it was left ringing.
finally i called up his house. he picked it up and went "why did u call my house?"
and there i went sobbing non-stop.
and he got scared. coz i tink i cried really bad. haha. wayang.
and the next thing i knew, when i was asleep at 1am, he called.
"hey dear, so sorry i made u cry dat bad. im downstairs. lets go for supper"
oh my dear munchkin, im touched darling. really am.i've never felt so loved like i did today.when he said he misses my hugs despite having met each other every single day during his leave, dat shows how much he wants to be with me.
im the luckiest girl on earth.
posted @
10:42 am
Thursday, June 23, 2005
was assigned as photographer fer the all-models party at one of the clubs yesterdae. armed with a SONY DSC-F828 loaned from SONY itself, me quickly called mr man up and asked him to come down for the party as well. he was so eager to play with the toy that he offered to help me snap party peektures.
well, he got in free juz like the otha models/media pple. thanks to moi la. i get in free coz im staff, n he got in free coz he is my man. haha. we mingled. we even had free dinna at the alfresco restaurant.free drinks. some was convinced that the man was one of the staffs. or even one of them media PR people.
he even bought me a new top just so i will look good fer the nite. coz he was wearing his oh-i-cant-resist-you-in-that-shirt top we got from timberland a few days back.so we must compliment each otha la. must look good together. i sure did not regret gettin that esprit top coz as after i changed, we were walking around wisma and guess wot, we bumped into the heartbreaker la dey, aka lahabau aka THE EX. haha.
and here's us after the party.
me shocked as usual
mr man as usual feeling2
posted @
10:55 am
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
singapore fantastic film festival! catch kontroll and immortell. n da horror movie!Visits: Hungry Ghost Anthology
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batman begins will keep u at the edge of your seat from the start to the end.
it juz keeps ur adrenalin pumping. from the way liam neeson or ducard becomes a mentor to bruce wayne to how sergeant jim gordon drove the batmobile himself.
i shud say this is one of the best eva batman movies ever made after the ferst few by tim burton. christopher nolan has made this movie into wot it was before, dark, shadowy and mysterious. just like the original graphic novels.much much betta and an improvement from the batman who fights evil in the form of the california mayor, mr arnie.
i give this movie a rating 9 out of ten.
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my dad has been sick for the past few days. ever since he came back from the holiday trip wif mum. now im worried. i haven break the news to him yet. mum wans me to tell him myself.oh gosh, he is so gonna go all emotional lor. will take him to the doctor this evening. he almost collaspe last night as i ushered him into his room. sigh.
izzit just me or it was like 187 degrees hot last nite. we were juz lying down there on the bed wif the 2 fans blasting in our face but we were sweating profusely. but yes despite dat, this mr man still insist on cuddling me.heh. me=bolster. it didnt last tho haha. he moved further away from me as the night goes by. but at 4am! it rained so heavily, the wind got stronger and banging my doors all. so chilly i tell u. fer the ferst time after so long, i slept wif the windows closed.
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i used to be able to spend on shoes every freakin week. i used to be able to afford to a big shoppin spree at least twice a month. i used to be able to just get woteva i want off the racks wifout thinkin twice. coz if u want it now, u juz get it now. no waiting. and after all that retail therapy, i still have enuff to last me till the nex pay day and i even manage to save a bit. but wots happenin to me now?
the answer lies ahead, i am so aware of it. i juz chose to tink that its becoz of me spending too much. and i still tink i am still able to save the same amount as i used to,no less than that.
suddenly i tink it is a bad idea now. but its too late to turn back.
posted @
10:20 am
Monday, June 20, 2005
we did not celebrate mr man's bday on friday. he needed some space of his own.
so we pretended its juz some ordinary day. it was only on saturday dat we gave him the gifts. even so, things dat i planned didnt turned out. coz after all its his birthday n
we had to do wot the birthday boy wans to do.
it has been a long time since we walked around town on a saturday night. and so we did. and we bumped into lots of familiar faces that we hadnt seen fer a loong time. he met some of his ex baristas coligs. his bmt frens. they all exchanged numbers coz the man changed his line wifout informin them. i bumped into some online frens, the gals from amk cc, who invited me to a birthday party this comin week at a chalet, and ex schmates. really nice. hugging and shouting "HEY U!" in the middle of orchard road. haha. and the night ended wif m nasir and puteri gunung ledang watchin us sleep in front of the tv and waking up on sunday morning wif breakfast in bed watchin shrek.
and i tried gettin him to speak like tuah in pGL. coz its such a turn-on the way m nasir did it.
"belayar berbelok2, bersauh di air yg tenang...." haha. he sounds weird speakin in proper malay. in dat accent. deep voice all.
it has been an exhausting weekend. emotionally n physically.
its like a turning point in our relationship. it sure strengthen the bond. n we are of coz much closer. i noe he loves me coz he still kisses me in the morning when i wake up despite me not brushing my teeth yet,altho my breath smells of coffee and mint sometimes(which he hates!) and still hugs me so tightly even tho i sweat like pigs :)
posted @
9:56 am
Thursday, June 16, 2005
i want wolfgang!!! gawd!! he is such a charm!!
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so its settled. confirmed. we are moving in on the 3rd.
and housewarming will be on the same day at 5pm.
those invited will received emails soon from yours truly.
cannot invite everyone la. must be low profile mah. n subdued.
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otak aku nak pecah. tmr's is the man's birthday. i already gave him his bday present.
the ferst part to it. second bday present, i haven even bought it yet.
but ive got some otha stuffs ready. bought from art friend. haven get down to doin the crafts yet tho. n its tomorrow. n he is prolly pickin me up from werk later. aargghh. no time! wot if he decides to hang at my place tonite?? mati2.
i still haven conferm wif his jing-gang wher they shud be n do the surprise thingee after our fine dining tmr. still dunno wot to wear tmr. pening2.
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shud i get the powerbook? or the vaio?
or if my pc is still really all fine, juz get the wireless adapter?
but wot if its beyond repair? powerbook? or get the exact same ibook as the man(prolly get the 14' one) or vaio?!
posted @
10:07 am
Monday, June 13, 2005
i was swooning. i shrieked the moment i saw his face one the screen. no . its not brad pitt. its adam brody la! the whole movie was just so-so, i guess the movie makers decided that since they have 3 good lookers as the main protagonists u dun need to put in that much effort into the plot.the show's kinda hilarious tho. and gawd, pitt in that grey top at the psychiatrist is hot.
oh im moving out. finally. and best thing its wif my cheena minah sista
check out the new nokia N series.. the N91 has 4gb of space! like ipod! n get this, the earpiece are wireless!!
now i'll just dunk the idea of gettin the xphoneII and wait fer this to be launch.
this xmas, they are launchin 2 new kick ass silver jewels. the ps3 and xbox.
posted @
10:40 am
Friday, June 10, 2005
Rock On Singapore !!!
Singapore's very own glastobury festival
http://www.rockonsingapore.com
The best, the brightest and the hottest bands! 17
local bands will rock Singapore from a sizzling stage
in Orchard Road over two days. Rock on Singapore
will showcase the best of English, Chinese, Malay
and Indian bands in a rock show to rule them all.
Come on down and party to the beats of these
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The event line up has the who's who in the local band
scene. Chart-topping rock and roll band Electrico,
arguably Singapore's most popular English band,
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with The Observatory and their truly original
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Bands included - B Quartet
Bhumiband
Electrico
Fatskunks
Fireflys
Kadaba Kadaboom!
LGF
Raindogs
Ronin
Rudra
Sideshow
Throb
Tiet
Ugly In The Morning
Zebra Crossing
When ? 17-18 June.
Where ? Orchard Green (Bring Your Own Tent)
Admission ? FREE !!!! (Singaporeans Are Kiasu)
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sometimes men can be so insensitive. no.most of the time.
4 days apart. a night to spend quality time together. but at the end of the day, i ended up wif migraine,gettin all soaked up in sweat,not even gettin that one private moment wif him. and of coz comin back to work after a 2 day mc still all sick n groggy.
sacrifice. tolerate. patience.
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ten minutes after i wrote the entry above, the man called to apologise.
what really touched me and made me believe this man here really loves me is when i told him about the gift i found on my desk. a box of scented incense n candles.
apparently he suspected it was from one of them guys who keeps disturbin me in the office and so he was kinda jealous. n he was goin " hey who gave u dat? gawd..im so sad..n jealous..i wanna cry"
n guess wot..he teared. he couldnt believe it himself.
"eh dear ..i shed a tear..my eyes is actually watery now...wot the ..see how much i miss and sayang u"
gosh. he is juz so cute sometimes.
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11:06 am
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
im very shy at weddings(yeah rite. me shy?really...only at wedding receptions!unless of coz it's held by really close frens or relatives). so this is the only one of them rare peeks that has me in them. 
aku macam extremely extra. all these are the man's best buddies from the secondary school. ok la.i know some of em gals in the pic. but im still shaaaaii. hurhur.
actually the man also extra, even tho the one gettin married is his couzin,he was not involve in any preparations fer the wedding,all the rest of em guys had a part in the wedding, emcee-ing la, photgrapher la.coz he haven been to any of the gatherings , so he felt really left out dat nite. poor thing. sapa suroh MIA kan?
posted @
10:47 am
Monday, June 06, 2005
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posted @
12:25 pm
with the start of the skool hols, the family set off to the holiday destination early saturday morning. me on the otha hand was celebrating the saturday off. finally. been goin back to werk the last 2-3 saturdays. werkload has been kinda heavy wot wif the festival and parties coming up.
but.its all completed now, i hope. *prays boss is not in his friggin i-wanna-change-everything-again mood*
so yeah, im free after work now. not too tired to go out n party. to hang out. fer coffee and kreteks. to shop @ the GSS.
we woke up early sunday morning. no. i woke up early. cleared up the mess bro made the nite before.
my bro can be such a mess when his wife is not around. food scraps all over. in the living room, in front of the tv. on the kitchen top.dirty plates. used knives. yucks. i dun berserak. mess.but not dirty.pengotor.and to leave fer werk leavin all these fer me to clean up after him.
prepared breakfast for the man. bacon strips, scrambled egg n toast. and yes. earl grey.
the man was still asleep,in my oversized adidas shorts,haha.he only woke up to the smell of the bacon and the kiss on the forehead.
after his sunday morning dosage of kids central,he decided dat he was too lazy to attend the wedding reception.
phew. i was so glad, coz i definitely dun wan to be at his ex-beau's big day. and we were suppose to go wif his parents. dats anudder no no as well. i wud be lost once again. more lost than the previous wedddin dinna we were at. so JB it was on the itinerary dat dae. no complains. when da day ended chillin out wif auntie anne's chocolate mint n adrien brody in the jacket at his place. and then goin all mushy and emo, him sending me home and then off to camp fer anudder week.
the man received an early birthday gift from yours truly. something he has always wanted. n i got it fer him after all the trouble of goin to 3 different stores coz apparently its out of stock, and some minah salesgirls are juz too lazy to go check for the item number and check fer stocks at the otha outlets. only at the final store, a kind manager went thru all the trouble to do the necessary and got me the number to the great world city outlet so that i can reserved the item.at ferst the man was kinda reluctant to accept the inexpensive gift.wot wif all the things im doin fer him now, he feels bad.but as soon as he saw how pretty and cool the thing was,he cant help hugging me and he cant let go. the satisfaction of seeing him smile gleefully, is priceless. now he cant help showing off his new possesion.
now i cant help thinkin of waking up beside u in the morning.
posted @
11:30 am
Friday, June 03, 2005
3 of my coligs were at one corner of the office this morning discussing the latest tiffany wedding band.
apparently one of them attended a wedding ceremony last nite and the bride received a wedding band from tiffany which cost oh well, not quite affordable fer the man on the street.
and they hav nicks like "when am i gettin my tiffanys?" and "i wan my bf to ge dat tiffany fer me too" on msn today.
one even called up her KL boyfriend to ask him to go take a look at the website and get it for her asap.
i shudder when i hear all these. oh actually im ashamed of my own species. how materialistic can the female get?i have a girlfriend who actually choses her potential by looking at his wallet and the designation on his namecard. and the gifts she asked from her countless boyfriends are not ur typical perlinis bracelet or mango top, but the latest LV and all the otha brand names i cant pronounce or have not heard of.
is the love of ur partner measured by the stones and doughs they give u?
yes, u cant juz live on love, in today's society u gotta hav da moolahs. and of coz u need that someone financially stable to live the rest of ur life wif. but are all the inexpensive items a need? to show how much u r loved?
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on anudder note, the NSF dude who is suppose to take over the man's job has juz been transferred to anudder unit. therefore bad news. da man is goin to taiwan again in august to do anudder evaluation of anudder unit. pantat punya army. org tu dah nak belah pon kau masih kasi die macam2 duty.
anywae question, if sergeants in NCC are called sir, wot do they call their officers? LORD?? in that case, if in camp, the man will be called LORD instead of Sir? hurhur
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3:21 pm
