Friday, December 31, 2004
numb.
Let's band together and do our best to lessen the sufferings of affected families.
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totaly unrelated
The Other End Of The Receiver and Serenaide
tshirts are now available at www.fruitrecords.com
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posted @
1:22 am
Monday, December 27, 2004
the catastrophe over the weekend has made me realised the end is near. very near. its time for reflections and repentance and thank Him for all that have been given to us.
oh anyone felt the tremors yesterdae at 9 am? its hittin places very near our home. its scary aye.
so plans for a beach getaway is currently on hold i guess till i get myelf out of this badi
aniwae the weekend has been one kahwen2 week. two of my close friends have finally tied the know. let the pics do the talking.
nourza's
feeza's
enjoying my mug of warm homemade barley drink now,specially made by my mama. it really soothes the bad sore throat. heh.
:)
ferst ting doc asked me when she shine the torchlite into my mouth was "do u smoke?" haha.
swollen lungs, infections, in lungs & throat. padan muka aku
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this song,my sentiments exactly.
oh well, kalau dlm tv, dorang cakap 'cinta tak bleh dipaksa beb'
I'm full of regret
For all the things that I have done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face around here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear
Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear
There is nothing to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh, shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up
tangled - maroon 5
posted @
4:26 pm
Sunday, December 26, 2004
macam sial.
macam pagar makan padi sak.
posted @
1:54 am
Friday, December 24, 2004
fer the ferst time my hp bills reached the hundred dollars mark..168 bux!plus some shit..im payin almost 200 bux. shit. all my 23 mths using this plan, the last mth before the plan ends i havta pay much more than the usual 60-70 bux each mth.
sms from KL - 7 bux.
taufik's votes - 8 bux
1748 sms - wif 500 free sms still a lot to pay
1089 mins - wif 300 mins outgoin free calls, n free nite incomin calls, still expensive lor
damn
ok web sms here i come.
posted @
1:41 am
Thursday, December 23, 2004
i lurve this song
esp the kermit's the frog version
the rainbow connection
Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told, and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
Who said that ev'ry wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me
All of us under its spell,
We know that it's probably magic.
Have you been half asleep and heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors
I know it's one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be
Someday we'll find it, the Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
posted @
10:46 am
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
So much for my happy ending
if only there's a word to describe how im feeling rite now. or a song. i shud be excited and happy. any other girl ( or minah) will be jumping for joy.
but im pissed. i feel dumb. i feel unlucky. i feel so fucked. wot have i done? can i turn back the time? damn.i have juz made history. and its sumting im not exactly proud of. wish me all the best in this journey. tho its gonna be a short one, i bet.
posted @
1:49 am
Monday, December 20, 2004
me: y haven u ask me out on a real date yet?
mat tapered: hmm..(pause)...dun worry i'll ask u out on a real date one day ya
me: okok..(fedup coz he is not answering the qns)let me ask u this prolly after u answer this qns i noe y u dun wan to ask me out. am i high maintenance?
mat tapered: yes. u are. but that will not scare me away. it wun stop me from pursueing u
me: y do u say im high maintenance? i eat at kedai kopi also wot.
mat tapered: ur shoppin habits. esp on branded goods. eating at high class places.chjimes la apa la.
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wah..hmmm. ok. i only told him once i bought one or two brand name stuffs. i told him once i was having dinner wif my coligs at a hotel.i go to attica and chjimes, and of coz the werkin place bar. are those places high class?
takkan aku nak pi hard rock sak. tempat mat. aku kerja kat top restaurant/bar takkan nak happening2 kat hardrock n jamz.
kau tu baru mat2 hingos pe. belom kerja betol. belom dpt rasa gaji besar. kau belom tau. aku peh duit per. lagipon kerja keras per, jadi takkan duit tu nak simpan buat datok. i need to give myself a treat once in a while. nanti ar tgk bila kau ada duit lebih macamane. sigh mat tapered...mat motor bleh beli moto. mat bola bole belik kasot sports baju sports mahal2.kau bleh belik sluar tapered jek. camne ni. nak setaraf dgn aku. but nvm we can always werk dat out later.
he is world's apart from me man.but opposite attracts. and it seems these things dussen change his mind on pursueing me. but nvm, i manage to convince him that i will give him a makeover. so he will loose that seluar kuncup of his. hahaha.
kerja keras sak aku. takpe image mesti maintain beb.
posted @
11:41 am
Sunday, December 19, 2004
aku emo.
posted @
1:06 am
Saturday, December 18, 2004
after all that raving and ranting.
here it is...some random pics of our k&K and wotnots
click here for more
posted @
2:20 pm
diet has been really bad dis past week. skippin breakfast. eating very small portion during lunch ( after that horrible mistake by the cook,i have to be more cautios now). and having a heavy dinner. and after all the snacks in between and the lunch n dinner, moi will go runnin to the toilet. lettin it all out. all sound so familiar? this is me when i go all emo. my diet goes haywire. and worst i only crap once in 2-3 days. fuck man.
i shudnt be thinkin so much about wot im goin thru. ive heard loads from attached girlfriends. i shud thank my lucky star im still single, n its not too late fer me to get out of my situation. if im eva in any of my gf's shoes, i dun tink i'll be able to handle thing as well as them. handling their problematic other halves,the love triangle they got into, marriage issues and wotnots. and after the heart to heart, woman to woman talk wif Kit at Liat last nite, we realised that no matter wot happens the woman always suffers the most n gets affected the most. and men will always be boys. neva matured, neva satisfied wif wot they have, neva enuff fer em. fuck .
and now i cant be bothered to cry.have ran out of tears. i may be all sad , but crying is of no use. over the other gender. coz they are heartless after all, and i can be cold too.
oh past few days mat tapered has shown his true colours. a leopard will neva change his spots aye. he is a true blue mat lor. so i really cant believe every freakin werds dats comin from him or i shud say things dat he decided not to tell me. kalau dah mat tu mat jugak laa..idop mau enjoy jek. i will neva let a mat hurt me further and play me out. if he wans to play games, den i'll play along wif my own game.
aku pon pernah muda macam kau per. aku dah masak dgn cara2 budak2 mat ns macam kau. tak payah simpan2. aku paham. nak enjoy kan? cintan kape beb. cintan tapi belom apape dah pandai simpan2. apa ni beb. tak rock tau.sigh. im left dissappointed again. tapi...aku tak rugi apape ar kalau kau nak main sial sekarang. sapa yg giler kan sapa
sekarang? kau main sial sekarang ko ingat aku nak accept kau? pegi jalan dah. wake up la mat. grow up.
posted @
10:39 am
Thursday, December 16, 2004
someone came to my blog from this search result
yanni the musician perhaps?
nonsense aye
posted @
10:37 am
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
i was deciding on goin for anudder holiday right after the KL trip. prolly this weekend. but the k&k session last nite made me change my mind. i have kit n poised. i have them to count on. heart u all u noe.
it was a surprise tho. didnt expect them to like him. or him 'clickin' wif them. their initial reactions when i told them of his mat behaviour was euuuwww n disgust. but now they tink he is not that mat after all. oh well, we'll see.
he insisted on the answer on the way back.texting me while we were sitting beside each other. bleargh.
he did some more lame thing.
lettin me listen to "are u gonna be my girl?" by the jet on his mp3 player. i pushed back the earphones back to him when i heard the rhythm of the drum beats of the familiar song.
im so lost now. i m still healing a broken heart and i have a mat jiwang retak waiting by my side. bile giler ko tau tak??
posted @
10:46 am
Monday, December 13, 2004
my room looks like a pig sty. macam kandang babi baru beranak sak.
soiled clothes from the KL trip. new clothes bought from KL. soiled clothes from last week. magazines all over the floor. my whole collection of bags n shoes.
if u r wondering why its in such a mess, its because i was tryin to clear up the little mess ive made on friday nite before i left for malaysia. but oh well, the little mess got into a big mess. heh. was admiring my bags and shoes and got pretty tired that i went to sleep amidst the mess. betol2 macam babi lah tu.
but bak kata omputeh, the state of ur room reflect the state of ur mind.correct anot?
posted @
2:48 pm
Friday, December 10, 2004
ive been waiting for weeks for this day to come. but now i juz don't feel like goin on with it.
i do need a break tho. well, i will have one shortly after aniwae.
amidst the continuos emotional breakdown and shocking news, i managed to squeeze in time to treat the lurvely k&K ladies for dinner , a short shoppin trip to get the long belated gifts for dad (wallet)& bro (thumbdrive). mum already got her gift,a langkawi getaway wif sis. all sponsored 100% by moi, the eva so totful daughter. :)
walaupon terkopak, puas ati beta.
i got sumtin fer myself too, finally, utang dabes baya, so i cud finally don the gelang tiffany i got last month, coz sis kept it.and of coz the new coach drawstring bag.
im still hoping for a miracle. some bit of luck. n charm on myself.
close tight belad friends have been on my side thruout this nail-biting, stressful, anoyyin week, giving me advise endlessly. and im surprised to hear their views and of coz their preference. i was smiling, but as i tot of the hurdle i hav to go thru ferst, i give up. im so damn angry, i give up. and so ive decided for the obvious choice. i hope i dun make a mistake here. babe, u guys gotta help me wif this. be behind me all the way. help me make this werk ya.
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4:37 pm
Thursday, December 09, 2004
i was donning my fave lacoste polo tee and mini corduroy brown skirt from mango ala marissa cooper from the OC when a mat hollered out
"chey crocodile kape?"
sorry lor, i dun wear crocodile. lacoste only.
if u were me,can u forgive that mat anot?
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11:52 am
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
is there any company out there in singapore that has the technology to erase memory. i wanna do juz dat now. erase someone completely outta my mind. and then life will be back as before i met him. do an eternal sunshine of the spotless mind of my own .
posted @
1:52 pm
due to a heavy spinning headache and aching body, i knocked off werk at 6 even tho thers invitations to be send out and more changes have to be made to the e-invites. oh well, i cant possibly wait for u if u guys haven done ur job of giving me the proper information aye?
it was hell in the bus. got down halfway, and hail the blue vehicle. someone called me on the mobile while i was all red-eyed and giddy in the bus,coz i didnt reply to his sms when he asked if i was ok. he accompanied me all the way till i got down from the cab to my doorstep. juz so to make sure i get home safe and sound. suweet?
plonked myself on the bed as soon as i reached home. made a phone call or two and i slept till past midnite. im still feeling all groggy, vomitted thrice, took 4 aspirin, shit twice, im fucken sick. cant sleep. i need my tiger balm. cant seem to find it. when mum is away on holiday, this is me. sick n helpless.
reasons y im sick. lovesick. miss mummy. not enuff sleep. poor diet. dissappointed. cold werkin environment. men.
posted @
1:43 am
Sunday, December 05, 2004
beach bumming pics
posted @
9:32 pm
Thursday, December 02, 2004
pics from last nite idol party here at sherein's
mp3s from last nite ==>here
more mp3s of taufik from http://www.taufikbatisah.com
lyrics to I dREAM- TAUFIK"S FERST SINGLE
Verse 1: In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit’s there, where eagles dare to fly
In my heart
There’s a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are
Bridge 1: It doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself
Chorus 1: And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream
Verse 2: If there’s a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when world’s have come apart
Bridge 2: It doesn’t matter rich or poor
Or the things you’ve done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself
Middle 8: I dream
Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone
the last time i actually had goosebumps watchin a tv show was when ruben did a rendition of flying without wings. and gosh yesterdae, i felt the same sensation when the newly crowned singapore idol sang superstitions.
pandemonium.hysterical screamings.all the jumping. it was like an indoor stadium on the second level of a yewtee HDB flat. complete wif flat screen tv and surround system, we screamed out 'taufik', jumped like mad everytime his face was upclose on the screen.werds like 'i love taufik' and 'oh shut up dear..kiss me!!' hahaha came sprouting out of me. but as the clock strike 10, i was afraid. neva felt my heart beat that fast before. as a friend said, it takes 20 votes from each malay fer darlink taufik to win, when it only takes one vote per manjen fer sly to be the winner. decided to do the 1900 call instead of normal sms coz we cant get the damn 1 sent to 43657. god knows how much starhub n medicorp is earnin frm my sms-s. ive lost count. only at 2ma did i get the confirmation sms. and i sms-ed 5 times from the mobile.and the rest are calls.aniwae who cares, ive a new idol to stalk now.heh.
as gurmit announced the new idol, i couldnt hear him mention taufik's name but as i saw tuty jumping fer joy and simultaneously hugged me, i knew his dreams have come true. :). i almost teared. hahah.
gotta start askin dad to bring me to his fave kopitiam at bukit batok. or get dad to look fer him n bring him home fer me.
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9:53 am
